Category Archives: Personal

dad

Posted on November 12, 2011 by admin

My dad is very complicated.  He is incredibly intelligent… and totally without understanding about people.  I used to think he only had the emotional reserves to have one relationship at a time.  Now, I think he just doesn’t have the … Continue reading →

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My cry

Posted on November 9, 2011 by admin

Psalm 69 16 Answer me, LORD, out of the goodness of your love; in your great mercy turn to me. 17 Do not hide your face from your servant; answer me quickly, for I am in trouble. 18 Come near and rescue me; … Continue reading →

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Divorce and Gehenna

Posted on November 8, 2011 by admin

Divorce… Gehenna… Without Purpose Divorce is separating purpose.  It is choosing to live life without the shared purpose of life together.  Gehenna is the place for things without purpose. My parents divorced when I was ten years old.  As I … Continue reading →

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Faithless

Posted on October 29, 2011 by admin

I don’t know.  I feel like something inside of me has just snapped.  I have wanted faith.  I want to know God.  I have sought.  I have pretended it was all right…. and right now I FEEL like I am … Continue reading →

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Coffee Time

Posted on October 28, 2011 by admin

The Shepherd and I used to have coffee nearly every morning.  We would sit down for an hour or so after the girls were at school, before the Shepherd went to the office.  Now, time is in shorter supply and … Continue reading →

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Inside Myself

Posted on October 23, 2011 by admin

I am a middle-aged woman.  I have been married for over two decades and I have three daughters who are more than half-grown.  All of these descriptions would make me think of a mature, person who knows not only where … Continue reading →

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Yearning

Posted on October 21, 2011 by admin

The Shepherd and I have gone back and forth.  In my frustration, I proclaim I do not matter here… I proclaim my need to make a difference.  The Shepherd tells me I have made starts… He hears little things occasionally … Continue reading →

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Word Picture

Posted on October 16, 2011 by admin

I was thinking about my prior post this morning.  And then I started to think about this search for God… The image came to my mind of being on a treadmill.  I just got my feet under me, but now … Continue reading →

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Wow!

Posted on October 12, 2011 by admin

Wow! I have been blessed.  I went home last week.  It was an incredible experience.  I feel so refreshed.  I spent hours at a time with 5 of the coolest ladies I know – I was able to have one … Continue reading →

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One breath

Posted on October 3, 2011 by admin

When I was a kid, I loved to swim underwater.  I would start at one end of the pool and try to cross there and back on one breath.  By the end of the summer I could always do it. … Continue reading →

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