Category Archives: Personal

School Shootings, Mental Illness, and/or Pain

There are many explanations floating around about the various mass shootings that have just occurred. I don’t doubt mental illness factors in.  Perhaps lack of gun control contributes.  And other factors I have not yet considered. However, the explanation that … Continue reading

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Inside a Hurting Soul

It seems the hurt should be healed by now.  But it is not. I hurt that the Church, or church, rejected me.  I hurt that the Shepherd is so battered.  I hurt that I don’t have a church to call … Continue reading

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The Short Bus

“The Short Bus” was a way to speak of “Those people” who needed special assistance in school.  They made odd noises, often did not talk, some drooled, others wore helmets.  They were always a bit intimidating to me because I … Continue reading

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It could have been…

I was reading this article .  It brought much thought, sadness, and conversation.  I am so aware I am not far from being Becky.  What saddens me most in this story is the lost life of the husband.  I do not … Continue reading

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Sadness

At times it seems all should be normal now.  I can think, remember (or use tools to assist), feel, dream, etc.  All of the things a brain should be able to do.  And yet there is something in me that … Continue reading

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Perception and Reality

I remember in high school coming to the incredible realization that in many aspects of life it is not reality that matters as much as one’s perceptions of reality. We do not judge another by their intentions, but by our … Continue reading

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Simple Joys

There are hard days… days so hard I wonder why I signed on for them.  Had I not undergone the three brain surgeries, I would probably not be alive — or certainly not functional.I know my conscious decision for surgery … Continue reading

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Lessons from a Bird

I have a parrot named Bonkers, an African Gray to be more specific,  I enjoy him being around and have tried for months now to get him to be friendly to me,  I talk to him, give him treats, and … Continue reading

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Searching for a Church Home

How do you look for a church home?  What are the criteria?  Is it a question of programming, opportunities to serve, feelings of connection? It has been many years since I was looking for a church home.  I do not … Continue reading

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Now What?

It is an “interesting time” in my life.  With the brain tumor, I was already struggling with my identity.  Now, I am not a Shepherd’s wife either.  I do not know my role in the Church anymore… I don’t even … Continue reading

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