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Humility, shame, and embarrassment.  I have been pondering how similar these three feelings are.  I am reminded when I lose control of myself  and lash out or when I fall short of being able to do the simplest of tasks. … Continue reading

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To live is Christ, to die is Gain

Sara was in her late 40′s and needed a hip replacement.  She went through the surgery fine, but was not able to navigate the world completely on her own for a bit.  Her husband, Terry, graciously brought her to church … Continue reading

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Inside a Hurting Soul

It seems the hurt should be healed by now.  But it is not. I hurt that the Church, or church, rejected me.  I hurt that the Shepherd is so battered.  I hurt that I don’t have a church to call … Continue reading

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Searching

I know my heart is not dead.  And not dead to God.  I listen to Praise/worship and I weep uncontrollably.  I want to know/find/understand/love God.  I can’t seem to get there.  Like much of my life.  Maybe I am cocooned … Continue reading

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The Little Things

“The thing that made Jerry Rice so great was that he tried to do the little things better than anybody else,” Jay Norvell said. Read more: http://newsok.com/oklahoma-football-jay-norvell-uses-nfl-experience-to-attract-talented-receivers/article/3719622#ixzz29bEGgMrE Jerry Rice set many of the NFL receiving records.  He played at the highest … Continue reading

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The Short Bus

“The Short Bus” was a way to speak of “Those people” who needed special assistance in school.  They made odd noises, often did not talk, some drooled, others wore helmets.  They were always a bit intimidating to me because I … Continue reading

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It could have been…

I was reading this article .  It brought much thought, sadness, and conversation.  I am so aware I am not far from being Becky.  What saddens me most in this story is the lost life of the husband.  I do not … Continue reading

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Sadness

At times it seems all should be normal now.  I can think, remember (or use tools to assist), feel, dream, etc.  All of the things a brain should be able to do.  And yet there is something in me that … Continue reading

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The Power of the Unspoken

James Dobson compares conversation to a game of catch.  I throw the ball to you and you throw it back to me.  If either of us fails to return the ball, the game ends. However, I think what is more … Continue reading

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Perception and Reality

I remember in high school coming to the incredible realization that in many aspects of life it is not reality that matters as much as one’s perceptions of reality. We do not judge another by their intentions, but by our … Continue reading

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