Author Archives: admin

Divorce and Gehenna

Divorce… Gehenna… Without Purpose Divorce is separating purpose.  It is choosing to live life without the shared purpose of life together.  Gehenna is the place for things without purpose. My parents divorced when I was ten years old.  As I … Continue reading

Posted in Personal, Ponderings | Leave a comment

For such a time as this

“And who knows but that you have come to your royal position for such a time as this?”  – Esther 4:12

Posted in Ponderings | Leave a comment

Gehenna

Gehenna – the landfill with everlasting fires.  It is a place of waste.  Where things without purpose are placed.  It  is the description Jesus uses for hell. Without purpose.  The landfill has many, many objects.  Put together, the items are … Continue reading

Posted in Uncategorized | Leave a comment

Feeling a bit sheepish

I know I have been pitiful.  I know I have been angry.  I know I have been searching.  I am not even sure why I have been in such a state.  Kind of like being in a big argument with … Continue reading

Posted in Uncategorized | Leave a comment

Wondering

When does it get easier?  When does it feel like it matters?

Posted in Uncategorized | 1 Comment

Surrender

I was praying for a friend’s father today… “That he will surrender his will to you.”  Perhaps that should be the prayer for me… “That I will surrender my will to God.”

Posted in Uncategorized | Leave a comment

My choice

I think I should post so “Faithless” does not remain on the page.  I think in my own odd ways, I like having the post there.  It is my defiance.  God can send me to this very hard time/task/place and … Continue reading

Posted in Ponderings | Leave a comment

Faithless

I don’t know.  I feel like something inside of me has just snapped.  I have wanted faith.  I want to know God.  I have sought.  I have pretended it was all right…. and right now I FEEL like I am … Continue reading

Posted in Personal | 2 Comments

Coffee Time

The Shepherd and I used to have coffee nearly every morning.  We would sit down for an hour or so after the girls were at school, before the Shepherd went to the office.  Now, time is in shorter supply and … Continue reading

Posted in Personal | 1 Comment

Inside Myself

I am a middle-aged woman.  I have been married for over two decades and I have three daughters who are more than half-grown.  All of these descriptions would make me think of a mature, person who knows not only where … Continue reading

Posted in Personal | 1 Comment