I have had some double vision the past few days. When the doctor diagnosed the depression, he suggested I should also see the opthamologist.
I went today — quite certain I would be given a prescription for glasses. Afterall, I did just celebrate my 42nd birthday. Everyone knows there is a magical age that requires reading glasses.
The eye doctor saw more than old age. He saw pressure on the optic nerve and promptly called my physician recommending a brain scan. They are throwing around the words “brain tumor”. It is, of course, way too premature to assume the worst. But it is quite scary.
I trust God has a plan. Unfortunately, understanding human nature, I know a great thing for the church would be a unifying cause…. like a brain tumor in the wife of the pastor. I have had suicidal thoughts in the past year. I always came up with the understanding it would be awful for my family if I killed myself. I do not know how to process the thoughts of a brain tumor. And I certainly don’t know how to think about things today.
People reading my blog are either trusted friends or people who have stumbled upon this site by chance. Please pray we find our hope in God…. And His will be done. If God wants my opinion, I would like to have an over excited eye doctor who saw something from nothing. :)