I think I should post so “Faithless” does not remain on the page. I think in my own odd ways, I like having the post there. It is my defiance. God can send me to this very hard time/task/place and I am here. But ultimately, I choose to follow God or not.
I know the “right” answer. I know the “right” response. I can’t seem to submit my will yet. I want to submit to God and I want Him to lead me… but not enough to surrender the frustration.