Sometimes it is very hard to be the pastor’s wife. Because he is a pastor, people have expectations of who I should be. I do not come into the church with a blank slate on which to write or even tell my story. People assume they already know my story because they know other pastors’ wives.
It is hard for me personally to break through that because I am not very sanguine. I am not very willing to tell my story if somebody does not ask. I assume that when one does not ask, one is not interested in hearing me. We have all met up with boring uncle who wants to talk about things we have no interest in. I don’t want to be the boring uncle.
But, I as the pastor’s wife, I cannot leave the initiation to everyone else. I must step out and engage other’s. If nothing else, because part of the shepherd’s ministry is dependent on me. People make many judgments on the pastor and his ministry by what they think of me – and my children. I feel the pressure to not lessen his ministry because of my personality. The demand to be more outgoing is not unreasonable. It might even help me find more contentedness in life. Being stretched is rarely fun, but often very rewarding.
You’re an introvert! I’m one myself. It can be problematic in American society.
Remind me to send you some stuff via other routes, one the next couple of days are past. I have too much people interaction to handle it today!!!!