Trying to move on

I spent a couple of days writing a letter to Rob, the elder who betrayed the shepherd so badly.  The emotions of “betrayal” in the Easter season were great.  Consequently, I decided it was time.  This is the letter I sent:

Rob,

I have waited along time to write this letter. I have some questions that continue to haunt me. I am hoping you will extend to me the courtesy of answering a few.

The hurt created by the decisions of the leadership at Singing Hills is tremendous. Derrick and I came to Hillsboro in response to the call of the church. We left Oklahoma with the knowledge of God’s call to come here.

Derrick served faithfully, with honor and commitment to preaching the Bible with honesty and to challenge each of us. He worked many hours completing all responsibilities,

So, here are my questions, Rob. Did you consider what the world sees? Did it matter that people like my dad, a skeptic, would see the church firing my husband while I was recovering from 3 brain surgeries? Did you consider what my three daughters would think about the Church? Did it matter at all that as teenagers, the church’s betrayal could effect their understanding of God? When the plot was forming, how did you reconcile “holiness” and the deception you would put forth?

I beg you to answer these questions for me. I still have literal nightmares from the Singing Hills experience. I am hopeful you will help quiet them with an honest response.

Sincerely,

”

I don’t really expect a response from Rob.  I think he is to self-important to bother.  But, I hope I am wrong.  I hope he will show enough consideration to respond with something real… not just a brush off.

I worked hard to keep the hostility from the letter.  I do not think I succeeded.