I have awakened early this morning and my mind is whirling wildly.
Yesterday was a hard day, but perhaps in a very worthwhile way. There was a painting party at the new business location. Derrick had to leave and get more paint. The people painting all looked to Trish for guidance. Granted, she has far more painting experience than I, but it is my shop and not hers. I became more and more frustrated in feeling like I was overlooked.
Throwing a temper tantrum, I went for a long walk. Adding insult to injury, I got lost.
Finally, Derrick came and picked me up using the find a friend on my cell phone. I humbled myself a bit and accepted the ride. Then tonight Derrick and I talked for a long time. I think it finally sunk in that he is not leaving me. He loves me and will honor his vow, “Til death do us part”. I have been acting like a foolish teenager testing to see if I can really trust him to stay with me in this new mind and body of mine. And the answer is a resounding “YES”.